The list...follow up...

Hmmm this is the first time I've actually "followed up" on a blog...it seems as if my compliant personality is surfacing to sort my life out and get things back in gear...less emotional talk and more action driven comments are in order these days...
I can check off the give the kids clothes away but they never made it to any foundation. The two maids that came in to help out today took around 10 bags full of stuff...and they were soooo happy....one of them doesn't need to do any christmas shopping for clothes for her daughter now because my daughter's old outfits, nice ones...will fit her perfectly...and the other one's baby is inheriting some of my youngest daughters dresses too....and I was blessed, literally by them...for being so giving. smiles...it felt nice...and even nice because I didn't do it to be thanked...
So the house is clean...er....and my OCD ways have kicked in too, because I'm cleaning up after everyone to the point of getting annoying...no leaving cups or ice cream plates behind leaving marks on my furniture!!!! Dog pee HAS to be cleaned inmediately...speaking of which the little one went to the vet for her shots today and a bath, boy was she stinky....and she started on dry food mixed with the can...and she liked it.
Tomorrow I'm teaming up with the girls to go paint shopping to start our paint their room project...they approved the colors...and are excited that we'll all chip in...thank heavens it's a fairly small room...although I think I'll probably just get around to one wall...lol, knowing myself the smell will chase me away...even though it's not the first room I paint by far...but it's been a good 4 years or so since I've tried it again....
The girls are asleep and my son is sleeping at a friend's....the house is organized, and I feel soooo much better because of it....the little one is asleep in the kitchen...dinner was good...and one happy pill later, I feel relaxed...ok, half a pill...0,25 mg to be exact...hardly nothing but enough to take the edge off....and get me some sleep tonight...because I only managed 2 hours last night...tossing and turning...I worry too much...
Today I'm in a good place...positive and exhausted....the girls room project is exciting...
I'm drinking some water, so I'm working on that as well....not quite ready to let go of the carbs because they might very well be what's keeping me somewhat active...and I need the comfort of food as awful as it sounds...even though my belly is growing and I hate it...need to do some exercise...now that the kids are on vacation I can still get up at 6 and walk instead of getting them rushed out the door....so there's an item I might be able to check off the list soon. Maybe...if tomorrow's a nice day I might even take the girls to the causeway for a nice outting...we'll see how that goes...
I'm getting used to being on my own....it's not that bad really...and I do enjoy my independence...my space...it'll become second nature...in time, I'm sure...one day at a time...