Favorites Quotes and Random thoughts...

i'm selfish, impatient, and a little
insecure. i make mistakes, i am
out of control, and at times hard
to handle. but if you can't handle
me at me worst, then you sure as
hell don't deserve me at my best.
-marilyn monroe

“The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you YOU love, well, that’s just fabulous.” Carrie Bradshaw ' Sex and the City.

Sometimes you have to forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve....

Life is like photography...you develop from the negatives...

When faced with despair....read lots of quotes! LOL...that's mine...
They really do inspire me, even though they're nothing but a bunch of cliches....that make sense. I mean, how hard is it to know what we deserve...not really...but we'll go out of our way to punish ourselves by living below our standards...and accepting the unnacceptable...negotiating with who we are...and for what? If at the end of the day...the life is ours and no one else's...and being alone...isn't the end of the world...sheesh!
Having said that...lol...how much of it all is my responsability? Today, while watching Grey's...I had a thought...when he said...she doesn't let me take care of her....rang a bell...lol. I don't...let anyone in...not far enough, and not for too long anyway...almost like, if I see happiness rear it's ugly head, I slam the door...each and every time...why is that? Do I like myself that little?
Granted, that there are situations and situations....but, the fact that someone offers to care about me...is taken almost as an offense, I guess...because it's a pattern that I see over and over...anything to not enjoy the moments...when that's what it's about...the moments...
I spend so much time making sure that they are what I want them to be...that I don't cherish them for what they are...and for just being there...period. My need to control things....and always have the answers can be overbaring...and honestly I don't understand how some people choose to stick around when I do the impossible to drive them as far away from me as possible.
Sighs....not much time to continue to elaborate on these thoughts today...kids sick...and I'm not really inspired but rather somewhat annoyed at everything and anything tonight...so, no point in spreading the venom...lol. G'night...