Another Saturday night....

Home alone....but have been chatting with a long lost gfd that lives in Colombia. We lived in the same building when I was a little girl and we've always managed to stay in touch somehow over the years....she's also separated and has a little girl, but boy has she mastered this whole being on her own thing...or has she? lol.
Was telling her a bit about my life...and recent happenings...in the male department and we've had a good conversation...she's way ahead of me though...a little too much for my taste but it seems that that's what happening out in the real world with the available women...why can't it be more simple? Men and just one thing on their minds...it's sad to think that from now on it'll be a matter of silly mind games to keep them interested and out of my pants...sighs...or maybe it's just too soon and I don't have the right attitude. It seems as if all I attract are wrong situations...or is there any such thing? Could it be that I need to live these experiences? Well, I did say that I wanted to live the normal life...so, can't exactly complain now, right? I mean, had I lived it at the right age the candidates wouldn't be married...lol, slight current handicap but oh well...at least he's not in the same building making up excuses to come downstairs to make out with me, like my gfd...LOL talk about balls....she has steel ones...
Is this what goes on out there, and what I was missing out on? Nah....I haven't even gotten the tip of my nose out the door yet..and I'm sure it's not that bad...and even if it is...I guess I can make it ok for me....
Just going through a shitty phase that's all....
Feel horrible...look horrible...all bloated eyes and belly...today rushing my baby Lulu to the vet...goodness what a scare...let's hope she's better tomorrow...I'd hate my kids to have to go through that loss right now...sighs...the ex showed up and I looked maybe the worse I have in ages....lmao...crying over my puppy....banged the car getting out of the building...my nerves are shot I think...and I'm not as ok as I say I am....deep breath...it's my period...
I'm tired....and beat...and stressed, have a good attitude but I feel that my body isn't helping me out....lol. Ok, exhausted...over and out....