Out of the blue....

Funny how life can change in the blink of an eye...for good, for bad...and for, well...unusual. Let's say that this has been a somewhat unusual couple of days. I moved to another location....with the emotional ups and downs that it brought...not working with him closely anymore...then the news of the trip that won't happen....while things at home are coming to a difficult conclusion....and then bam, out of the blue...a blast from the past. Very unexpected....and startling, really. I mean, I could think that he wants to get in my pants as T says...but, I made clear that that can't be on the agenda...and he keeps talking/calling...and I'm not really sure what if anything I want from him...someone else to talk to...closer? Could be. The thing is that this man has more baggage than Paris Hilton on a road trip...not that I don't....or anyone does....but his is pretty out there...lol...and he's a bit inmature....funny that he's actually the combination of M and T...LOL.
He has the dark, handsome thing going on....likes the outdoors...lives on the edge....makes a good living...but is also selfish and inmature. Could it be that since I've not been in relationships before I'm just coming to the conclusion that mean are surprisingly alike? all of them? I mean, deep down?
I asked him to give me 2 qualities of his 3 ex's...and it was difficult...he's clearly self centered...and doesn't acknowledge people's positive traits once they're history in his life. On the other hand...he comes across as a good dad, and he did say he regretted his first divorce. I can see myself becoming his shrink...too funny. Even funnier, that he's a needy one....very...I can tell...and I've used the T treatment...relax, I'm here...lol...just ask if you want to know something...don't assume....lol...and it worked...the man actually was impressed by how I handled his needines...and this is not a romantic or sexual relationship...and he got cranky because I hadn't replied to him in msn...LOL...gosh sounds like me. Could it be that I'm meeting all kinds of people so that at the end of the day I can conclude that...the one man that seems to be what in the future I might be looking for...isn't available for me. And that I'd have to meet someone like him....to be happy....lol...good luck with that! It's not a bad thing completely though...because he IS my friend...and although there's no romantic future in store...he's a part of my life...and I like that. Maybe, one day I'll meet someone like him....
Or, could it be that I'm just meeting all the wrong people, period???? I mean....once and if I'm out there...there HAS to be something else...right? But for now....I'm enjoying the new unpaid therapy I'm helping A out with....lol From a quiet little life, I'm multitasking big time here...I mean, I've been invited to dinner tomorrow...what a slut!
Oh, and ran into him food shopping....of course he knew I'd be there...and he showed up...lol....I was looking like shit...which is good...and of course he said I looked great...ha! Tomorrow, I'm wearing even less make up and shittier looking threads....lolololol.....after all, I said...NOTHING other than just friends.....of the buddy type. Funny anecdote? In 2 days...the man was buying a different brand of toilet paper and packing the eggs in a separate bag as per my recommendation...I told him...he's just begun the end of his life as he knows it...lmao
He seemed amused...and it was fun, so....no harm in that. Plus he did look like crap....so that was great! laughing....
A friend....I like the idea.
Oh, M came to see me today....I'm telling you these days are just full of surprises....took me to lunch with someone else and everything...was very very nice...he must miss me. He looked very nice too....nice, nice, nice...lol
It was a good day.....had plenty of attention....but what truly made my day....was when he let me know he was having a hectic day...anytime he shows me that he cares enough....just knocks me on my ass....what can I say? He must like me....hehehe....more than he gives off....
And after talking to other people....I realize that more and more....
I really wish he could have made the trip....I miss him....very much! And I so wanted to feel his arms around me...and look into his eyes....and just smell him...and be with him...and talk to him...and frustrate the hell out of him...sighs....it's going to be a looooooong time, I guess....
Anywho...and before I get all blah.....tomorrow I have a dinner invitation....to the sushi place no less...early evening...to chat....I just hope that the one time I'm having a harmless conversation I don't get in trouble...that would be so ironic!
Why does he want to talk to me so much though?
Hmmmm.....
Maybe I'm naive enough to think...that he just wants a friend?
Oh well....time will tell I guess...for now, it's fun....
Nite...