The world through migraine glasses....

The day started well.....slept in, a bit uncomfy squished like a sandwich between the Mr. who seems to slowly make his way back to my bed...and my daughter that takes up half of the bed....I'm back to sleeping on my tummy....wonder why that is....need to read up on it to find out what that means...lol. Kills my sinuses, is all I can assure.
Got the kids ready and took them into the office.....they ordered lunch, loved it....and it was all fun and games...took them driving....my son is learning well...the girls enjoyed cruising on my lap....still fun....and then off to the mall to get our eyes checked....I need to get my glasses, as done my son...but no luck, doc was out and won't be in until Monday...another week wasted on that one....
and the mall trip began the madness....boy pulls towards his interests...the girls outweigh him...and we end up looking at girl stuff....they poke and bug all throughout the way....mom breathes deep and off we go....earrings for the girls...books for all, including mom....clothes hunt for one of the girls no luck...so off to boy land....get some clothes for him too...in the midst of complaining, nagging, more poking and whining...mom is getting tired...and starts warning....the trip continues...as does all the rest....we have to visit grandma that had a rough night...high blood pressure...so we decide on ice cream....no chocolate for mom...that sucks...so the kids want to try new flavors...mean time the line gets longer....and making honor of their genes, they can't make up their mind...and take forever...and when I ask them to hurry...the ATTITUDE....so, mom turns around and starts walking out of the mall...kids follow...they're dropped off at home....mom goes and visits grandma alone...and along comes the migraine....lol.
So, here I am....some pain meds later...and some water...writing while I can feel the muscles in my neck as stiff as can be....5 hours of non stop kids...is just not for me....
But, I hope to find some peace in writing...as the kids get ready...the two oldest are getting ready for a dinner invitation at a friend's house to celebrate the holiday....yeah, could have grounded them...but it's actually a treat for me to have some peace and quiet....if the little one behaves. Maid will be out, so it's me and the baby....the mr. will probably be very late...
So, on my way home I was thinking....
On migraine days....as I was feeling compelled to call him....what am I going to do, if we do decide to end the marriage?
Who am I going to call?....
I mean, the answer seems simple...noone...and I'll have to rough it like every other mortal does...but, how difficult!
My family isn't too helpful in these situations...and my best friends are very far away....hmmm...what a dilemma....but, not impossible to handle, I don't think....I need to learn to be independant...and plus, the kids are here....
I don't do pain well though....and one of the reasons I've been holding up so well lately is because the mr. makes sure I have some TLC while he's home...I don't acknowledge much of it....but it really helps....am I just avoiding? Probably...but it's alot to take away at once...he needs and wants the closeness obviously...and it doesn't bother me...lol...so, why suffer more than needed?
It's not like we really know how this is all going to end....so, why panic so soon, right?
But, I find it pretty funny how my mind does freak out when I think of moments of crisis without my usual support team...even if that team is only one person...and it's not like he does much....but, he's around...and cares....and I kinda like that...
I do know that we live this life on our owns though...we're essentially alone...and we can only count on ourselves...but, some support is good at times...
And as I write...the pain is somewhat lifted....sighs...what a relief! I'm getting less tolerant to pain as I get older...lol funny...it should be the other way around...
And just as I write about stress being less, and pain getting better...one of the little ones needs to come and nag...lol Mom, come help me find something to wear!!!! Mommmmmmmmmmmm!!!
And, the little marble in my head starts bouncing up and down again....big sigh....
The venting helped though...so, until next time....