The vagina monologues....

Saw it on HBO last night....too funny....thought it was pretty insightful actually...and I felt in good company as far as the women of the world raised with taboos and inadequate feelings towards themselves...their bodies...their sexuality....but, fortunately...those days are over....and slowly but surely I am building what will be the foundation of the rest of my life....feeling completely comfortable in my skin...whether the world likes it...or not....it's my life....and my vagina...LOL...
Seriously though...I think the importance of a woman's vagina is grossly underrated....it's a sacred little temple of pleasure and fun...lol....but, then again so can the whole body be...if used wisely...
The mind though...is of course...the most powerful piece of the puzzle...and it controls everything...from making the whole experience a blessing...or a curse....
Lack of sex has me writing about my vagina...this is a hoot! But, it almost feels like sexual rehab...where I'm cleansing my erotic soul so that I can start anew fresh....whatever that means.
The truth is...sex is good...damn is it good...when it's good....because it can be bad...when it's bad...lol...but on a day like today...bad would do LOL....not. I actually thought about it on my way home...ok, so I can make an arrangement with hubby...sex, and go on as usual...just scratch the itch...but somehow and even in the midst of horniness....it sounds wrong....so, no deal.
It'll feel worse afterwards..so, racey dreams....and lots of me, myself and I action....lol...and boy do I have ammo today....laughing....had a thought on my way home that froze my entire body and sent a shock through it....what was it? damn...can't even remember it now...must have busted a neuron in the process....but it was HOT. Maybe I'll figure it out before the blog is over...
So...back to the vagina....lol....I thought it was interesting what they said about the clitoris and that it's sole purpose is to produce pleasure...that all it's made for...and that it has more nervous ends than a penis...not surprising though...lol...we rock....
Ok....after interruptions here every 5 seconds...intense family....let's see if I can get back on track here....where was I? My mind is kind of all over the place today.....but that's a good thing...
Another interruption...I need to murder a child....
Sighs....I guess I'll get these thoughts out during the weekend....my son just won't let up....attention freak...wonder who he gets it from.
Part 2 of this Blog....not sure I had actually stopped and waited a day to continue but...it's all about adaptability...so, perhaps this is also an acceptable way to blog....lol.
I make the rules around here...and there....and everwhere...
Let me just read what I had wrote to see if I can continue on the same note...or if today....we're on a different one...lol.
Ok, so here we go again....the more I listened to the monologues the more I related to the fact that women have been taught and expected to not enjoy sex as much as men...because, well...it was wrong...and women are subjected to much more abuse sexually.....than men...I mean, when was the last time a woman raped a man??? Why is that though? What is it about women....that men have been a career of taking advantage, humiliated....repressed and abused them throughout history....maybe they feel threatened by our strength? I mean, look at it from a need standpoint...men are so weak when it comes to women...could it be that we're their kryptonite and they've kept us on a leesh because of it? Who hasn't seen the damage a woman's wrath can do...or her passion...or drive? Women can be as soft as silk but as dangerous as a sharp sword....we represent the balance...we have it all...men, on the other hand....have something...lol, not really sure what it is....but we have so much more...
The complexity of women...our depth....or ability to sense...and perceive...to adjust or adapt....to feel...no wonder we're a threat....we're IT. We can have kids....and as the bumper sticker says...we bleed for days and don't die...lmao. We can be strong as an oak....when needed....we take the weight of the world while raising the family....we can sense when the children need more attention...or love....while dad is all about discipline and providing....not much emotional output...lol...like that term. Women are nice to look at....ok, some men are too....women have an energy that guys just don't have....it's like this aura....the way we laugh....and just use our whole bodies to make a point...lol, guys are much more simple that way....
Our vocabulary is way larger....because we speak the spoken and the unspoken....we can read the lines in between the lines and make up the lines...lol, we're perseverant....and a royal pain in the ass when we don't get our way....we're curious and demanding....and independant but love to be with someone....I don't think I had ever been so grateful for being a woman....now that I'm finding out what that really means....and all the benefits it brings...and how to work around the restrictions...such as in work environments...I think I'm learning how to work the system....give the guys the image they want...but keep the brains...and get what I want...lol.
Women have depth....many many layers....are do they? Or am I just describing myself? lol...well, I'm sure there are some kindred souls out there....
Women struggle....and think alot....and wonder....guys play ball...and drink and eat...and look around to see if they can spot a pretty woman....to feast over....fantasize about....and then go home and dream about her....or in the best case...go over and actually talk to her....
Women have so much power over men...it's not even funny....sexually speaking especially....I mean, I've seen it first hand and I've not even been out there...lol....it's like this desperate need to be inside of a women....smell her...taste her...feel here....they lose their minds...lol...perhaps it's true about the oxygen flow not being enough for both heads....ha!
What some batty eyelashes and a big smile can accomplish....hehehe....without being too obvious of course....don't want to come across as an air head...although that sometimes does the trick too...lmao...I've learned that ditzy can get me places too...so playing not so smart has been useful at times....not sure how successfully I pull it off though....hehehe...
Men don't want to be intimidated by a woman....that seems stronger than they are...so, you need to balance it out...wow....now that I think of it...women influence men...lol not to say manipulate them all the time...do they even notice it?
Well...yeah, probably the rarest species alive....the smart man....LOL
There are still some of those around....I'd know....I have a tendency of finding them....no brains is a turn off....doesn't have to be intellectual...although wouldn't complain about that.....but someone who can definitaley juggle between some deep random thoughts and the remote...LOL
I think women can shape a man's mind...but the same is true in reverse....we allow the people we like to influence us somewhat...and without losing our individuality....we do compromise....some more than others...some like to play hard ball...lmao....
Which brings my mind back to sex again....sighs.....why is it that I like to be touched so much? Doesn't even have to be a sexual touch....but, I do enjoy it on certain areas of my body more than other....my feet....my calfs....my tush....like it there alot....very gentle...tip of his fingers almost tickling....my belly....love it there....my back....my neck....my face, believe it or not....just the running of his fingers like he's drawing my face...or put more romantically....trying to remember it and save it through his touch....and of course my breasts....and last but probably the most sensitive places....my inner thighs....and right THERE. So, I don't have a place that I don't like to be touched....lol. I can just lose myself....if I'm being caressed all over....love it...doesn't everyone though? Some of us just indulge in it...some don't....silly people...
I'd say that I like someone's lips and tongue in just about all the same places....yummy! Starting point the neck....my lips....my tongue....my nipples....things can get a little rough there....and I like it.....my belly buttin....my inner thighs....and again....right THERE...lol. 35 years old...and that's the best way I can label it...lmao. But hey....can't name it....but feel amazing using it...so, that's progress in my book....plus not labeling something isn't always a bad thing...lesson learned.
Oh my fingers.....they can be played with too...like it lots....the whole exchange of finger sucking excites me to no end....especially if it's guided....I like to be guided a bit in the bedroom...letting go....turns me on....enough control in life...don't need to be so controlling in bed....although sometimes that's good too....
There's something about tongues rubbing each other...I have to say....that's one of the sensations that I enjoy the most....why? Not a clue....perhaps because it starts with a tingle here and tingle here...until I can feel little electric jolts all over...like my tongue is connected to the rest of my body....hmmm....yep, sure do like that feeling....
Being watched....is a huge turn on....now of course....had I been asked years back I would have freaked out....but, I think that knowing that it's hot for the person watching....it's exciting for me too...power trip perhaps? Well...there must be some of that...and I sure do know that I like it.
To see a man struggle....holding back....or just enjoying himself to the point of losing control....WOW. That...is a huge turn on....
When I'm given certain instructions.....if it's at the right time....like it too...especially if it surprises me...which it has in the past. I remember a time when, and because of my lack of experience...I had NEVER been asked to suck it...after it's been inside of me....lol, and I was asked....on the very first time...I was with this person....blew me away...didn't freeze...just went ahead...did it...liked it...lol....I don't even think he knew or knows...how many little things....were first times for me....and will probably continue to be....
Yesterday.....I sat at the end of my bed....and just dropped my body back so that my legs were dangling off of the edge....and....I spread my legs....and imagined....that he was there...as he has been....many times....touching me....and kissing me....so, I slowly reached down into my clothes....and began to play....with my eyes closed...picturing him....and feeling him....of course...not nearly as good...lol....but, my imagination was doing it's job....and it was amazing....when I finally came....it was intense....hard....and it made me laugh....because it was so good....and I'm not a quiet one....even when I'm alone...can't be....so had to muffle the sounds with a pillow....so that noone could hear me outside....the room was almost dark....and cool....I then took off all of my clothes....and took a nap....felt great!
Hmmm....sounds like a good idea....maybe I'll do some la la land traveling before heading out to work today....smiles...
Till next time....hot and bothered signing off....