Sleepless....

Everyone sleeps.....except me....I was...but then I woke up....and then I did chores....and now I can't sleep....amazingly though, I feel pretty good....lol, funny.
Kids are camping out in my room....hubby is out cold...and I'm wide awake as if it were 3 o'clock in the afternoon....it'll be interesting to see when I'm dragging my feet tomorrow and the kids are jumping up and down to go and do something....I need to arrange to have them all shipped off so I can finish off the chore thing...and see if I can start packing and getting rid of junk here....amazing how I can accumulate tons of it....I'm the kind of person that doesn't like getting rid of stuff...and I keep it...the cards...the papers....the kids doodles...the point where I have nowhere to put it all...but don't have the heart to throw any of it away....report cards....baby clothes...lol, I'm such an old lady in some ways....but getting rid of junk can be uplifting....I really believe that the way we keep our house...or car, or any of our belongings is a reflection of our minds...which is why I was in dire need to get my car fixed up...was getting depressed with it looking that crappy already....lol.
I give away all the old clothes...to anyone who might need them...want them....don't have a problem inheriting clothes myself...my sister in law has passed on some nice stuff over the years...lol....a few cute blouses....which is the only thing that fits...and I've passed along some dresses for her...that I can't fit into anymore...lol. The kids also go back and forth with clothes...and they love it...it seems to mean alot to them to wear something that belonged to a cousin...and the same with the cousins and them....of course not all clothes can be recycled...lol only the really nice stuff....that's a shame to give away to just anyone....with my son he's usually giving my nephew suits and dressy clothes more than anything...
So clothes are on my mind...lol, how shallow....must be all the stuff I just threw in the washer and dryer....separating by colors...by clothes and towels....luckily I'm not one of those so useless ones that get everything all ruined messing up colors or shrinking stuff...hasn't happened yet...doubt it will....
Wow...I'm so wide awake can't imagine what time I'll be ready to doze off again...not feeling it right now though....but am yawning...go figure....lol.
No work on May 28th...yay! And probably taking 4 or 5 days off during the first week of June....nice! I think we're going to the beach after all....have a feeling it'll rain...but oh well...can be nice even with rain....no kids....just relaxing....saw a nice beach dress today...pretty sexy looking...might get it if we do confirm the whole plan...although I think it's a done deal....odd that he asked me about it today when I called...must not have been alone...lol. Which is why I don't call much...hard to be spontaneous in such situations....don't want to put him on the spot...oh well, don't ask...don't tell....is the new motto....
More yawns....but not really sleepy....guess my body is but my brain is still in overdrive....
Tummy feels better, have really been watching what I'm eating...and I think it'll help me with the whole weight loss thing....need to start fake baking if I'm going to show off my new bathing suits....get all dolled up...it's been a very long time since we've been away alone...I'm looking forward to it....I have a feeling he'll sleep alot...I better bring along some music and a good book....I enjoy walking on the beach alot though....funny that I actually like to do it all alone...it's a great thinking spot...beautiful view....and wouldn't hurt to just doze off with him...be lazy together too....
Yeah...looking forward to it....
I'd like to be able to do that more often...we'll see how this time goes....it's important....away from the children...sometimes we forget....and let everything revolve around them....to the point where even the kids resent the fact that we do on ocassion want time to ourselves...they can be so overbaring....more yawns....lol.
Walking in the rain.....that would be nice....haven't done that in ages....I wonder if they have a disco place....bar thing...whatever....would like to dance too...haven't in awhile and I like to so much....
I feel free when I dance...like the music takes me somewhere different....just away....and it moves me from deep down inside....
Oh! Someone at work gave me a great idea....we were talking about my girlfriend and her birthday plan in the states and all that, and she suggested that instead of going to see guys take their clothes off...or...as well as doing that...lol...we could hire a girl stripper to teach us the moves! I'd so have fun with that...lol. Same with belly dancing...I want to learn to do that someday...I think I might be able to without so much of a problem...have tried to isolate my hips and move shakira style...and it comes out pretty good...so, if I was actually taught...would be great.
Big yawns....I can see myself doing the stripping thing for fun....just to see the reaction...lol, hilarious....yeah a couple of moves would be nice to learn....
Sex scenes have played in my head several times today....lol...really passionate ones....up against a wall....kissing until it hurts....and holding each other tight...and just going at it!...laughing....tons of ooohs and ahhhhs....and it's hot and sticky....and messy...and fun! Smiles here....
I think I'm relaxing myself to sleep here...yay!
Yeah...time to try the bed thing again.....sleepy Becca signing off...