What a long day.....

So much for spending time with the kids....they all up and left...and here I am....too anxious to sleep...too bored to not do anything....cooked...ate...cooked somemore and ate somemore...lol....
Car's in the shop...and I really didn't feel like going out....watched a movie...Rumor has it....for the fifth time...I think it's very funny....in a dull kinda way....
I must be PMS'ng....feeling kinda down....
Hope to be back up by Monday to kick butt at work....I need that....to make something happen....stir things up a bit....there, here...
I've had way too much time to think today....not good....
My mind goes to places it has no business going....but it's not about him, really....it's just a general sense of blah....
Hubby and his long long days and nights....the kids....wanting to be always on the move...new friends...new places...always something....
What about me?
Really....what do I have to look forward to....other than an afternoon in front of the tv....eating more than I should...and as unhealthy as I can ?....
I know it'll be better and more interesting tomorrow....and that I hold the choices of what kind of life I live...but it's not so cut and dry....
Hate feeling this down....I need chocolate....hope the kids remember to get me my ice cream....
Let's see....I'm going to inventory my positive traits...see if I can pick myself up here...
I'm a smart girl....vivacious...full of energy....not bad looking...not too out of shape....great smile....nice eyes....I like my teeth...lol, they look pretty cool....my belly button is cute...and my tummy....is nice and flat most of the time....
I'm kind....when noone's watching....and generous, most of the time...
I care about people...even when I deny it....and I would feed the world if I had the money and the time....I'm taken by children....love to smell them...newborn...feel their soft soft skin...and their peaceful little faces....the innocence of their eyes....and those funny little voices they have....
I'm confident and outspoken....have strong communication skills...except when it comes to my own personal life and feelings....could sell ice to an eskimo....and can talk my way out of murder....
I have keen perception...and can smell a rat, miles away....I love deeply...and am passionate....
I can enjoy the smell of freshly cut grass....and the soothing warmth of sun rays on my skin....I enjoy closeness of the people I care about....
I can feel music in the very bottom of my gutt....and can dance with my soul....my tushie is pretty attractive.....and I walk with a swing....
I can spell....really well...lol, and have a blessed memory....can remember faces from ages ago....and have been known to even recognize voices...from years and years ago....I can cook....and enjoy it....love to teach....my singing voice can carry a tune....there's not very much I can't do....
I have sense of style and am original.....unique, according to some...
I can keep a conversation going for ever....and have a sense of humor...
This is fun...I almost sound conceited...but boy, am I good...lol
Did I mention I'm not that bad at the sex thing? I think I can heat things up pretty well...and have some nice moves....
I'm a great kisser...very skilled with my mouth....
Have a gentle touch...known to give goosebumps....lol, now I'm really smiling....
I have great taste in men...and furniture....not that they have any relation....lol
I'm level headed...and strong willed....I'm analytical and bright...
There...that little exercise helped....
Nap time....