Sunday night...

The kids are on their way to bed....it takes forever to get them there these days...it's like their energy never ends....
I try to remember what it was like, when I was their age....but it seems so long ago...that I can't really relate anymore...I wish I could...maybe I'd be more understanding and tolerant...or maybe not...lol.
Ah...the first of many contradictions that I'll put down in writing...this should be fun...to be able to see for myself...what others constantly remind me of...
In fact, that's one of the reasons I'm here....to get to know myself...looking from the outside in...instead of the usual other way around....
I thought I had said they were off to bed...no such luck....they want to camp out in the family room...so deciding who will sleep where had become an issue that they voice out in a loud enough tone that I can hear them all the way in my room....Special parts of the sofa....who can even remember the last time a place to sit or sleep was important? Same situation in the car...the window seat as opposed to the middle seat, and they start tagging parts of the car as their own, on their way down in the elevator...
Sighs.....I'm back....the arguing got out of hand and noone was getting ready to sleep....10 pm...school tomorrow....the same Sunday night story...over and over....they're growing too fast and it's getting harder to get them to do what's right...when they need to....hormones are starting
to rear their ugly face...and my sweet children are turning into little pre pubescent little demons....Sighs....not fun at all.
Sunday nights are usually my toughest....the kids routine...without any help gets to me sometimes...I know it can be done...has been done, by billions of women around the world....maybe I'm getting weak, as they get older...I don't know...but it sure is hard...on Sunday nights...
It's like the full weight of my parenting responsibilities are obvious to me, when we're alone...the four of us....at the end of the weekend...after the fun and games...when we need to get serious....and get in enough sleep hours...for a productive week....
Try explaining that to kids....lol They think they can do anything...
When does that change, and we become....adults, and doubt so darn much?
I used to spend alot of time in my room growing up...so going to bed was never an issue...I would watch tv until the wee hours...and waking me up was pure hell on my aunt and grandma...
Wait....I was my kids once...poor aunt and grandma...lol. Luckily it was only one of me back then....now, I have 3...lol.
It's quiet now....they'll soon be asleep....and I will find something to do with my time, until he comes home....late nights for him...I wait up....trying very hard to show support, and being a good partner in this marriage....it's flowing quiet easily these days....I'm actually surprised...
When he gets home, I make a point of asking him about his day....making sure he's comfortable and gets the attention he deserves....after a very long day...he's worn out....can't stand his feet, and needs to be able to
relax and let go...for the couple of hours he can get....before the next day comes....and it does come quickly for him....
So, I've made it my job to help him with that....greet him with a smile...
pamper him....and make sure that he's taken care of....and is strong enough to endure another hard day at work...after all, he does it for us...
I went and had lunch with him today....we flirted...lol. Hadn't done that in years...felt nice...to see him look at me that way....
We held hands and exchanged smiles....amazing how great that can make me feel....after all these years....
I shopped like there was no tomorrow...pants, blouses, jackets, like it was an end of the world sale...new clothes and purses and stuff....make me happy these days....how vain I've become...lol. I've actually become a lot of things lately...that I'll leave for a later blog...but....it's all good....makes me smile....
I can't remember a time when life worked as well for me as it does today...I feel....and I dare say it...happy! Well, at least content...lol, happy might be stretching it a little...and I don't want to jinx whatever it is....
Could it be possible that I'm having a case of the positives???? A life long pessimist converts to possitivism? An optimist born? Wow...another blog in the making...
I've smiled alot as I write...so, it must be the right thing to do....rambling
is something I'm very good at.....so I think, at least I know I do it alot!
Back...had to pee and check on the kids....1 down, 2 to go....maybe next Sunday will be better....hope is the last thing to go....lol
Ah...changed my hair look today...not straight as usual....took advantage of the layers...gelled it, and gave it a nice wet look....very wild...lol. Everyone liked it....including me.
Made a boo boo, ate Friday's take out...nearly killed my tummy....but took it easy with a light pasta dinner, and lots of water...
Started taking the pills the doctor recommended....and my tummy has settled a bit....need to follow a strict diet though...which is good...I might even lose some weight...yay!
No onions...no garlic...no spices....what am I supposed to eat???? I'm going to struggle some with clients visiting next week...we usually tour nice restaurants....nothing bland and healthy there....
I just wrote and erased a thought....don't want to start up with that now...I hope his days are sunny, is all I'll say about that today....
I need new shoes! Maybe Tuesday....I have shopping plans for then...
Haven't been able to download music...that sucks! Will try again today...music will be a series of blogs in itself...love it...can't live without it...in fact it's been my partner in life since I can remember...
Songs for celebrating...crying...whining...sleeping...venting....dancing....making love....there's always one for every possible feeling....music is my lifesaver....takes me anywhere I want to be...whenever I want to be there...
Just one more hour left for this Sunday night to be over....and a week to meet again....lol Time, is a subject to be avoided today....
And since I can't think of anything non threatening to talk about....I will conclude my first blog of the Becca's stories series. How Fun!