My new best friend....

Is this blog...lol. I just read through some of my entries and realized that I would probably never get all of those thoughts out during a conversation...I'd hint...tip toe....but not put things out there like that...
I like it...it's liberating...and I'm not even writing every single litte thought...there is some...that I keep to myself...but it's so much better than how I communicate sometimes....I get stuck....blocked...go in circles...and bring every one along for the ride....sucks...
Kids are getting ready so we can all go out....I'll spend the day with my son....we need some time together...alone...without the stress of the little ones....thinking about going to the movies...and just hanging out....
Feeling a little better....house is all cleaned up....clothes and towels are warm and fluffy...lunch was good....didn't feel like cooking though so we had some delivered....not bad...can't do everything...lol...
Hubby is in sweet mode....makes the beginning of the days...and end of the nights something to look forward to....still really helpful around the house....we're in a good place....I'm still checking on a place to go for the days he's taking off....that place in El Valle sounds nice...but I like the one in Boquete better...the only issue with that is the 6 hour drive...not sure I want to be so far from the kids...lol...yeah yeah....
He's excited about it...we looked online last night....now he just needs to confirm the dates and we're set....should be nice...it's a good time for it...and he needs the rest....and pampering...the place has an awesome spa...and all kinds of pampering packages....yay! I'm psyched already...
Hope the kids don't hurt each other while we're gone...or that my aunt doesn't have a fit dealing with them for more than a day....
If it's still raining....it'll be nice....the weather is cooler than in the city....probably freezing for me...but lots of flowers and trees.....very very nice and relaxing place...food is supposed to be good too....funny that they describe it as mediterranean....on the website...lol, not even elaborating on that....as long as I don't see a falafel or something out there...I'm good...LOL.
The rooms look heavenly...the jacuzzi is almost next to the bed...lol...woohoo! Yeah, and now watch him book for the days I have my period....LOL....that would be just my luck....but...will stay positive...
This writing thing is really the bomb....I went from down and shitty to positive and well...in a matter of hours....maybe that whole book thing isn't such a bad idea....when I learn to really write...lol....
The sky is gray...not the way I'd prefer it...but I guess the rain is needed....hope not to get rained on again....couldn't stand a major cold right now....
Will have to bundle up to go out today...lol...in a tropical country but this to me...is as winterish as I'll have..yuck!
Speaking of winter....just remembered that I need to book that disney trip soon to let my sister know of the dates....arrrgghhh...will get on that on Monday...
My car is ready! Yay...it's gone to finishing school...to have an extreme make over...and extreme indeed with what it cost me...lol
Will have to keep it impecable so that I change the darn thing in a year or two...not now....that mortgage is going to hit me way too hard...lol
Oh..the new place....yep, I'll go tile hunting this afternoon with my son too....need to get that wrapped up and moved into the new place asap...
Why am I stalling??? Hmmm....because I'm going to have to deal with all of it alone probably? lol...yep....it's funny that I have to do alot of that...
maybe that's why I'm whacky...too young and too much crap to deal with...
It's all good though...not whining about a new place...and not afraid of work...but would be nice to do it with someone's support....and company...sighs...not happening any time soon...maybe when I get old...hubby will be around more...lol...will I want that? Doomed if you do...or if you don't....not even sure I want to be married when I'm old...
I see myself as being the cool and nutty grandma that lives in a house out by the beach...by herself...and all the grandkids love to visit...but the kids don't understand...lol....
I see myself as a young granny that can still turn heads...that has gotten better and more interesting with age...and has the younger guys after her...lol what a novel....yeah, because as men...probably by then...I won't like the guys my age or older...and will look at the fresh meat...LOL...I sound like a guy...ewwwww....
Or...with a girlfriend...once I accept that men are just too simple of creatures to keep me entertained...LOL....hey, anything can happen...
But I would soooo not want to deal with any more hormones than my own...heavens forbid....strike that thought!
But there's a loooong ways for any of that....the beach house isn't in sight...oh and I forgot the mention thhe cruises.....lol....and nights out...
I hope to live long enough....even though by the time I claim my freedom I'll be too wrinkled for anyone to care...
Maybe I'll find a wrinkle fetish guy....LOLOLOL....
That would be hilarious...to finally find a man that worships the ground I walk on...and he's with me for the wrinkles...LOL...
Yep....I'm a romantic....hadn't really admitted it....but reading myself it's obvious and probably why I get frustrated....no romance in this life...and I'm soooo young....
Well....it's not over....
Hope is the last to go....
Much better day already....over and out....