Memories of the day....

I'm pooped! Kids jumped into bed with us after all....so much for camping out...and I didn't get much sleep at all...arghhh. Early morning...6 am the maid rang, and it was the week all over again. They woke up without a struggle this time though....jumped right in the shower, and were out the door before I could completely wake up...
Woke him up at 7....poor thing, he's so tired...
A shower for two...what a sweet start for the day....it's going to be a good one...this Monday, I could feel it...
I decided to change my look today again...more gel....great reviews....sexy, nice...very good...lol. Change is good....I wonder why sometimes I'm so afraid of it...
Today I let go....I mean, I was driving to work....and felt an overwhelming sensation of peace...almost like I couldn't feel myself...like I was floating...and instead of getting scared as usual...I just let it happen....it was a pleasant experience...I felt free...
Smiled alot today...don't know what it was about this particular one...but it was like I owned it....I could do anything....
I need to relax...and not take myself and everything so darn seriously...
SERIOUSLY...lol. But it's not easy....my kids are driving me bonkers here again....why does my son need to attract negative attention...all the time? The sounds...noises...grunts....I wish he would just stop....teenagers piss me off...it's a fact...My 8 year old and the whining....geeze! I mean, I love them to death but they'll drive me insane very soon at this rate...there's not enough time to hear my own thoghts...I dread coming home sometimes....knowing it's going to make me so upset...why can't they just do what they need to...not bother each other....listen....and let me be?
Getting frustrated with the same story day in and day out....
Sighs...so what else is new? Work was good....clients flying in tomorrow...hectic week ahead....but that's nice...stay focused on work every day for the next few days...busy is good.
A bit of a headache here...that sucks....not enough water, I know...I keep telling myself to be good to me...but, I slip...
Tomorrow thyroid ultrasound and blood work....yuck! It'll be over soon enough....to start figuring out what the heck is going on with me...physically....cuz mentally, I'm not even getting into that today...lol
I'm tired...need to go to bed early for a change....won't be able to wait up for him...but, I have a stressful week ahead and need to recharge batteries...
He's popped into my head very briefly and only a few times...I don't give my mind the chance to elaborate...lol, I think that's funny...how I control my thoughts and where they go....Got plenty of time ahead, so no point in even focusing on it....hope he's relaxing...is the allowed thought for the day.
Ya gotta do...what ya gotta do....I'm impressed though, at how well I'm doing....maybe I'm finally growing up and processing emotions like an adult...lmao, ok....wishful thinking...but sounded really good.
Well, off to bed here...catch some tv...try to zone out from the little demons outside....and drift off into la la land....