End of Month....

So all in all, the month turned out ok...better than expected....work running smoothly....now...until I start stirring things up as of tomorrow...I think I'm back...and want to get things up to speed again...way too much break time...people not doing what they're supposed to when they're supposed to....back to managing the queue myself....and taking control, over what little I can....lol....
Back to people complaining that I'm too strict...yay! Vacation is over...I'm back!
Ok, who am I kidding?...lol...sounded nice though..
Son is at a sleep over...middle daughter too....and the baby is dozing off here on my bed....the bickering hasn't gotten better...I don't know what it is that makes them argue so much....I feel helpless at times....and too tired to get aggravated every single day...so hands are up in the air today....sighs....
My hands are up in the air on alot of things these days....that whole serenity prayer comes up....how was it? grant me the strength to change what I can....accept what I cannot...and the wisdom to know the difference...I think....lol....how about me and praying? I do...on ocassion...but it's more of a self pep talk than anything else and a way to keep myself sane....not sure it's working...lol
I do bitch alot about myself...my life...and I have a pretty good one....that's not right....I should be more thankful and appreciative of what I do have....and enjoy more....like I read somewhere...it's not about getting what you want...but wanting what you have....sounds so simple...buy boy can it be tricky sometimes...
This house is a mess...and...my hands are up in the air...lol....I think today I've come to the sad realization that a housewife...I am...NOT.
This chore thing day in and day out....is awful....so, I'll do my best to tidy up before he gets home....but that's about it.....plus with this whole digestion thing...I start feeling icky when I bend over to pick things up often....yep, I'm my grandmother...
Who knew a group of people could use so many towels??? My god....anyone heard of hanging them out to dry???? and not pulling new ones out every five minutes? And all the clothes these kids pull out before they choose what they'll wear.....lmao...but I do that too sometimes....darn genes....
I used to be such a messy kid myself.....would play with my aunt's clothes and leave them all out...no wonder my grandmother always wanted to kill me....
Favorite food....rice and ketchup....lol...and would dance by myself for hours.....troubled child...lol
I kept myself entertained....thank goodness my kids actually like people....cause I never did...lol....enjoy them alot more these days....
Amazing to think that those years are long gone.....and that I survived!
It wasn't that bad though....especially considering I was a difficult child...something that I'm realizing alot more these days dealing with my little angels....
Dance lessons...piano....tutoring...I was pretty spoiled...trips to the US 2 times a year....my aunt really gave me alot....but was running low on the affection department....we weren't really a good match...but I know she meant well....a kid that's not yours...she's not married...I'm probably a brat....not a match made in heaven....and my grandma...well, that's a story on it's own....the women does not know how to smile...never did...so hugs and kisses weren't big in that house....
It's a good thing that they are here now....and that I didn't become a sour person....I'm actually pretty touchy feely considering....
Probably even too much sometimes...
Hubby was actually the best thing that happened to me back then....so much patience....lol....a true saint....my home was a hectic and loud as one can be....so much stress....and tension....it's a wonder he kept coming back...they'd shoo him away at 10 pm...literally tell him visit time was over....lol....he was 21! It's interesting what attracts people....
So back to my kids and their mess....and their attitudes....strong genes...what a curse....hopefully they'll turn out ok....yeah, I think they will....
Hubby's cranky...can sense it in his voice...uh oh...can't blame him though...he's probably just tired....just hope there's no clash of the titans...he's upset because I've not gone to pick up his pants at the dry cleaners....why haven't I? I was getting good at tending to his needs...lol...oh well, tomorrow maybe...I'm just lazy I guess....plus what's the big deal about a pair of pants? I'm a piece of work....so much that I make myself laugh...all about me...if it were my pants I'd have thrown a fit! Which is probably what he's going to do today...LOL...Have to cut him some slack...dealing with me for almost 20 years....the man has to be tired....
Why am I so self centered? Because I can? LOL...
Seriously though...I bet I'd be happier if I wasn't so self absorbed...would focus less on my crap and would spend more of it trying to make others people's lives better....but how?
Hands up in the air again here....even I get tired of trying to figure things out....
I should get myself back to chore land...whoopie!!!