Almost weekend....

It seems like everytime I get the chance to write...I'm exhausted...lol, it's been a long, emotional, interesting and very productive day.
Some challenges coming to terms that my growth at work is put on hold...had a great client visit though....I was relaxed, no migraine...I'm kind proud of myself...I'm learning to be more of myself....not so worried about others think...speak my mind....know when to shut up...got laughs...and great responses....nice....
Alot of talk about him made it hard not to think....little things like music and comments here and there would trigger more thoughts...some longing....and at times a bit of sadness....but, it's been one of those days...tomorrow it'll be fine again...in fact, it already is....
As I write my day events....my kids are coming up to me to have me sign grade sheets....I'm selfish, I know...but writing is helping alot....so, will keep doing it....
Dinner at my sister in law's tomorrow....more challenges....it's going to be one of those days...lol
TV's way too loud....turned it off....it's a time that I feel the need to unwind...in silence...my mind wants to shut off, so these are the very last drops of energy that I'll use it for....
I tend to fall asleep as soon as I hit my bed these days...which is a good thing....being the overthinker that I am....
Everything is great....but I feel a little uneasy....can't really figure out why...something is bothering me...maybe it's work...and the sillyness of putting in so much effort on something that's not going anywhere...but, I'm not a quitter...so whining and bitching about is all I can do...and get over it....and work as I always do. It's dissapointing at times though, honestly....but, I guess it's not the right time for change....I'll have to continue to exercise patience and wait....
My eyelids feel heavy....it's a been a long couple of days....not getting much sleep...I mean, I do sleep...but don't seem to get the rest I need...
but it's almost the weekend...so I'll get plenty of time for that...
Why do I feel sad? Sheesh....hate this....yeah, it's the people flying in and out of my life....on all levels...can't seem to get used to it...pretty childish, I know...but....can't seem to like it.
Anyways....enough of that...I should be feeling great, praises all around about my team...my work....but, still feel empty today...I'm a stupid girl....
Must be PMS'ng because this is coming out of nowhere...geeeze...
I'm just tired...that's it...no deep analysis required....didn't get the chance to see grey's....new episode...which is probably a good thing....nothing that can't wait until next week...plus, I'll check it out on abc.com...
Kids are still up...I should put them to bed...and just lay with them....I need their warmth today....and their innocence around me....
What the heck is wrong with me today??? It's like I got home...sat here to write...and everything just sorta fell....
Oh well, gonna go...this isn't helping....g'night....